The Married Life

It is the eve of our seven year anniversary. I still remember the feelings I had seven years ago the night before I said, I do. I was full of emotions, full of dreams, full of excitement, and hope for what the future held for the future of us.

I sit here today, seven years later thinking about the future, in awe of what we have accomplished,  overjoyed by our children and what we have together. Marriage is not what you expect, I am sure that it never is for anyone. There is not anyway for anyone to anticipate what might happen, how they will feel, the situations you will encounter....with that said it is a journey. A journey does not imply it will be easy but rather something that is ongoing, headed somewhere that is worth that journey. My marriage is worth that journey from the start and even now. I am overjoyed and overwhelmed at the journey so I am glad that I have someone with me on the journey ahead.

"Mom Worry"

It is Friday Evening, sitting with my husband watching a little T.V. as the day winds down.
The kids are in bed, the dishes are done, the house is clean, and the work week has ended. My mind is still going a million miles thinking about all the things that I want to accomplish this weekend.
I have what I call Typical Mom Anxiety- that worry about common things like; did the kids brush their teeth long enough tonight?; Are they going to get enough sleep?; Did I do everything I needed to get done?; Do I have enough time to clean more?; What will I make for dinner tomorrow?. That is just the beginning of things going on in my mind. My husband has what I call man mind. He thinks about what is going on right now and that is it.
I am working on lessen the amount of Mom worry however it is a large task when all you want is the best for your kids. I find that mom worry has been really putting a damper on EVERYTHING. All I can do is worry about things all day long. Talk about draining and consuming. I remember when I first identified that I was having worry and anxiety, I searched online to see if anyone else dealt with it. I realized quickly that it is a common feeling. Most of my friends do not have children so it has been difficult to find someone else that understands.
Mom worry is common and I will continue to unpack this as I strive for better balance in my life during this season- a work life balance that dreams are made of.
The journey continues.......  

It is Sunday Morning.

I am determined to start this new season differently. I am a perfectionist and strive for this in my work life which created chaos in my personal life, with two kids, a husband, and many other people and responsibilities in my life it created a fork in the road. Was I going to strive for perfection in my work life or was I going to strive for purpose.

I have chosen purpose. This brings me to a new season. I am excited and eager, ready for the change. My focus on work has produced steady promotions the past five years however it has been at a price.

This is the last week of the kids summer and then things will really get cooking. I am ready for blogging, bubble baths, bike rides, walks, church, time with my husband- better put a better life-work balance. Looking forward to updating this blog along the way.

Cheers to the last week of summer!